Saturday, May 29, 2010

Lately I have been preoccupied with my dear husband's passing. The pain doesn't go away. It may hide and trick you into thinking it is not so sharp but it's still there.

I think of him and talk to him a hundred times a day. He's always with me and some days it hurts more than others. Grief doesn't go away. Whomever said it goes away, lied. The pain is there, sharper some days, but always there.

There is not a day that goes by that I don't miss him, that it doesn't hurt! I have a hole in my heart and a hole in my life that nothing can ever fill.

I will always love you and I miss you sweetheart!


Coach Mac said...

I was thinking (dangerous, I know)...that people give advice when you lose a loved one - and often they tell you to dive into work to help forget - why? While the reality is painful, the memories are splendid - the fact that memeories were made, had, created, lived, loved...nothing rids you of pain - but there are some things that dull pain just for a bit.

Sandy said...

Thanks for the kind words. Most of the time I'm ok but every once in awhile, I start to feel sorry for myself...and then I start to whine about poor me.

I have such wonderful memories that I have no business bemoaning my loss.