Wednesday, April 02, 2008

It's hard to believe that it is 4 weeks since Garry died. It's surreal! My DD and I are managing - we returned from the service in Ottawa a week ago and have started to finally get some semblance of routine and order back into our lives. Since returning, I have been consumed by meetings and paperwork but gradually things are starting to fall into place.

I haven't had a lot of desire to do much and as a result have been doing a lot of sitting around - so much to do. I did, however, start to go through DH's clothes and have been able to pass some of his really nice clothing on to a close friend who is thrilled to have the suits, jackets and shoes. I am equally glad that I could give them to him as I know that Garry would have wanted that.

I haven't been near my studio since we came home from Palm Springs - I just didn't have the desire to go down there. However, gradually I am feeling the creative urge coming back so I hope to be able to go down there and do some art soon. When that time comes, I'll post it to the blog - it's been too long since I did that and I'm sure everyone is bored with the soap opera that seems to have become my life.


Lynifyni said...

Dear Sandy, I don't know you very well, except through your beautiful art...but please, don't feel your life is a soap opera or that any of us reading your blog would feel that way. Many of us have gone through similar circumstances and can empathize with you and offer our shoulders...I'm glad you've got the love and support of family and friends. Take the time you need and let your inner spirit guide you. Bless you!!! Lynn Fox

Sandy said...

Thanks for your kind words Lynn. Right now my world is upside down. There is not a lot of joy in life right now, but day by day it is righting itself.


Aimeslee said...

Dear Sandy,

I'm new to Altered Designs and in looking at everyone's blogs in the file I arrived here. My prayers are with you and your DD. I can't imagine what you are going through, but I've rarely read such an honest sharing. No soap opera. I will visit again. Hugs! Aimeslee

Sandy said...

Thanks for visiting my blog Aimeslee and your kind words are appreciated. The creative urge has worked it's way through the overload of everything else and hopefully I will be back creating sooner rather than later. I look forward to seeing you back again soon.

Lara said...

Sandy, it's Lara, JK's x-wife.
I was speaking to him the other day, and he told me the news about Garry. I am so sorry. I happened upon this site while I was searching for info. I had asked J to send me your address, so I could send you something, I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you.
His loss is one that is felt immensely, I'm sure.
All my best.

Sandy said...

Hi Lara

It's so very nice to hear from you! Thanks for the kind words about Garry. His passing came right out of left field - he was such a big strong guy! It wasn't supposed to happen like this; neither Kerry nor I were prepared for it. However, we loved him too much to want to keep him one second longer knowing what he had ahead of him had he survived. We believe that God was indeed merciful in taking him the way He did and we're both at peace with his death. It's hard - we both miss him so very much but gradually life is returning to some semblance of "normal" for both of us.

Take care.